When the Gray is Turning

by Steven Kattenbraker

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $7 USD  or more

     

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
03:16
6.
7.
06:06
8.
04:39
9.
04:32
10.
04:54
11.
03:00
12.
04:42

credits

released May 7, 2018

Recording/Mixing: Steven Kattenbraker
Mastering: Gus Elg Sky Onion
Artwork: Dreama Kattenbraker

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Steven Kattenbraker Washington

contact / help

Contact Steven Kattenbraker

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: The Ever After
The Ever After
I’ve tried, digging in my heels
Going too fast down the hill
You’ll come tumbling after

Jaws clenched for the blow
As they know
They’ll meet the ground faster

Refuse to eulogize the truth
Disinter the call for proof
This is not a disaster

But we haven’t got a clue
What to do
With the drunken toastmaster

Here it comes around again
The chalice and the truce
Got ‘head and drink it down again
The honey of the spruce

All hail, the emperor’s in jail
His darlings diving down the well
To delay their capture

There’s no one left to blow
The silent notes
Of the false rapture

Assail, the fox has left the trail
The hounds can’t see past their tails
On the hunt for laughter

The chase is dragging on
The scent is gone
Postpone the ever-after

Here it comes around again
The chalice and the truce
Got ‘head and drink it down again
The honey of the spruce
Track Name: Curtain's Drawn
Curtain’s Drawn
In earnest now, the audition starts
Reading from the end to render
The plot a ruse

Far removed from the leading parts
Cast the extra acts, reveal
The pomp and purview

I scored it for a thousand more
Guess we’ll overlap the scenes
To give it meaning

The curtains drawn, you’re on again
Ballasts twist your shadows spin
Around you

The cloak and veil your second skin
Raving eyes are peering in
They’ve found you

Placed your lines nose to tail
Memorized ‘for you can spell
They’ve bound you

Eye your marks, spots on the wall
Fledgling pirouettes fly up from
Dizzy falls

Through the scene and out the door
Perfect and en pointe you barely
Touched the floor

I scored it for one and no more
Guess we’ll overlap the scenes
To give it meaning

Abraded knees the worst you’ve known
The leaded net’s yet to be thrown
Around you

Your vision wise yet never seen
The bone exposed its naked gleam
Confounds you

Storyline is still too raw
Painting scenes you never saw
Astounds you

In earnest now the curtain falls
The trial’s run its course and rendered
The plot a ruse

Far removed from the leading parts
Scratch the extra acts reveal
The stark and virtue

I scored it for a thousand more
Guess we’ll overlap the scenes
To give it meaning

Curtains close you’re off again
Ballasts still your shadows spin
Around you

The cloak and veil your second skin
Raving eyes are peering in
They’ve found you

Placed your lines nose to tail
Memorized ‘fore you can spell
They’ve bound you
Track Name: Lamentations are Lacerations
Lamentations are Lacerations
They keep your faults, around their necks
And they rub them like dark, potent amulets

Spite and scorn, turned inside out
Shows the stitches of misgiving and tags of doubt

Apologies they aren’t always a state of grace
When they’re dusted off and rolled out
Just to save face

The breaking up, of the ice
Has left you drifting on floating bad advice

Leave the crow, on the fire
Rather starve than come clean as a liar

Your glowing eyes and their unassuming grace
They eclipse the scars of lies
That criss and cross your face

Lamentations are lacerations that the heart implores
With each succeeding, stinging cut it just beats for more
I’d like to help you patch the wound
And slam the door behind you

We’ll make a hole, and throw it in
And promise not to dig it up again

Spite and scorn, turned inside out
Shows the stitches of misgiving and tags of doubt

Apologies they aren’t always a state of grace
When they’re dusted off and rolled out
Just to save face

Lamentations are lacerations that the heart implores
With each succeeding, stinging cut it just beats for more
I’d like to help you patch the wound
And slam the door behind you
Track Name: Summer Pond
Summer Pond
From the dark, throw the meal
Water boils, cast the reel
Light the fuse,
‘fore the thunder peels
Hope this finds you well
Summer pond, will you
Stay
With me
Track Name: New, New Colossus Blues
New, new Colossus Blues
Cast out
Pulled from the sea
Sinking
Exile breath free
Console
Mother
Straddles the sea
Golden
Door welcomes me
Console
Track Name: Spear
Spear
Licking wounds from cushioned falls
Is not enough to know the taste of pain at all
To betray is simply to change
The path transcribed into your veins
Yellow ribbons tied to the posts
They’re faded white, so many ghosts

There were no lies, just differences in interpretation
Only stark decisions for us to make
There was no chance of mindless repetition
The dead prevented reshaping past mistakes

Rolling stream beside the road
Molten steel and blood, and black liquid gold
Every home fears our approach
Good intentions shot full of holes

Waste no time posing questions to wooden faces
Or rest content till the truth unfolds
Try to wedge into all the tiny places
Like water, when frozen it cracks the stone

Hands are calloused from their wringing
The metal is hard and cold

We’ve learned nothing from our progression
Made the spear much easier to throw
Hope you’re watching and deciding
When it’s your turn you’ll take a different road

The phony dove has been released
It’s talons sharp, no eyes to see
No branch in tow, no branch to rest
It’s plunged its beak into its chest

There were no lies, just differences in interpretation
Only stark decisions for us to make
There was no chance of mindless repetition
The dead prevented reshaping past mistakes

Hands are calloused from their wringing
The metal it’s hard and cold

We’ve learned nothing from our progression
Made the spear much easier to throw
Hope you’re watching and deciding
When it’s your turn you’ll take a different road
Track Name: Passerine
Passerine
The nest is lined with holes
Snake skin blazes warning

Last night safe at home
Windows taunt the morning

You’re on your own
You’re not alone

Passerine
Here’s how it all begins
Take off unknown
Once overflown
End unwritten
Now bring it in

You know it only glows
When it’s barely burning

Can always paint it gold
When the grey is turning

You’re on your own
You’re not alone

Passerine
Here’s how it all begins
Take off unknown
Once overflown
End unwritten
Now bring it in
Track Name: Predator
Predator
Knew the danger ‘fore you took aim
Wager pleasure on your pain

Of all the times to hit your marks
Ruts of sharpened scorn smoothed to dull blame

The predator and unwilling prey
I guess it’s your grace to give away

I’d tell you you missed me but that’s your intent
Targeted stunt show how close you could get
Headlights and steel and a roar of contempt
Our blessings were carved from our innocence
Honor your lapse with my gratitude
More of the same comes to you

Feared your tracks were a crooked frame
Despite your lucky miss, you’d never be the same

You left the scene to remember you by
Now I’m inclined to do the same

I’d tell you you missed me but that’s your intent
Targeted stunt show how close you could get
Headlights and steel and a roar of contempt
Our blessings were carved from our innocence

How hard it was to
To be naïve too
What you already knew
More risk makes a better game
Made your gamble
You knew you could play and I’ll stay
Right here at home

The predator and unwilling prey
I guess it’s your grace to give away

I’d could thank you for the lesson learned
Or light my own flame and let you feel the burn

I’d tell you you missed me but that’s your intent
Targeted stunt show how close you could get
Headlights and steel and a roar of contempt
Our blessings were carved from our innocence

How hard it was to
To be naïve too
What you already knew
More risk makes a better game
Made your gamble
You knew you could play and I’ll stay
Right here at home
Track Name: Fence Out
Fence out

When we’re, all in
And cutting out pictures of faces
We’ve lost to time
We’ll keep hiding
And hoarding are strength with our share
Until it shines

With open arms, meet the imposed will
And downcast eyes, bid the lips be still

And we close the gate
Fence out the exchange
Perhaps it protects us
But it works too well.

Board up the booth,
Got no tickets to sell
To the shoe-string charade
Got no stories to tell
You listen long, you listen well
It’s your turn the parlance is stale
Perhaps it protects but it works too well


No one stops
To taste what we’ve grown to expect
Is lost on the vine
Furrowed dreams, bleed
Until pillows are full and betray
Our empty heads

Blowing rings of smoke,
One for each lost year
Can’t help but choke
Trying to fake the tears

And we close the gate
Fence out the exchange
Perhaps it protects us
But it works too well.


Board up the booth,
Got no tickets to sell
To the shoe-string charade
Got no stories to tell
You listen long, you listen well
It’s your turn the parlance is stale
Perhaps it protects but it works too well
Track Name: Orbit Bound
Orbit Bound
Once for all we saw
The slow rise and the fall has won
It’s done
The taming of the sun
Flaring out in hiding
It’s down, unwound
The orbit it’s still bound
Bound to the dark and distant
To turn, return
The stellar lantern burns

Once for all we saw
The slow rise and the fall has won
It’s done
The taming of the sun
Flaring out in hiding
Its down, unwound
The orbit its still bound
Bound to the dark and distant
To turn, return
The stellar lantern burns
Burn off the daylight
Burn away wick to finally set free
To see, set free
Freehand the meaning
The last leaves on the tree
Treelined twilight
Tree bending softly over to the saw
Is all we saw
The slow rise and the fall
Track Name: Signing Off
Signing off
Signing off again
I don’t know what’s happening
I don’t want you looking in
On what I fear is setting in

I have always known
That I would see you again
A false web I’ve had to spin
With no thought of falling in

We’ll run, run till we fall
Then we’ll try to make sense of it all

I have always wished
That I could reason
A place we would meet again
When this earthly life ends

A pearled paradise
A gilded Elysium
With all that we’ve loved at hand
An eternal reunion

We’ll run, run till we fall
Then we’ll try to make sense of it all

I have always wished
That I could reason
That we would be born again
A journey that never ends

Our love remains
Sustained in a second skin
An oak at the river’s bend
A swallow on the wind

We’ll run, run till we fall
Then try to make sense of it all

If you like Steven Kattenbraker, you may also like: